My spring semester of senior year was a crazy whirlwind in itself. Between more health complications, heartache, relationships ending, and last minute credit issues between schools.. this past semester has been a hurricane. Through everything that’s occurred, I’ve learned I need to spend more time focusing on bettering myself and my relationship with God, rather than giving my time to others.
Don’t get me wrong, I love spending time with others and caring for others in need. Calling a friend who’s going through a difficult time, or being a short drive away to talking through issues.. but I have neglected to care for myself. I keep giving time that is needed to strengthen my relationship with God to others, running away from Him (NOT a good idea). I feel drained giving my energy to others and leaving none for strengthening my relationship with God or working on myself.
So I decided a few weeks ago to change around the way I do life. I started waking up at 5:45am to be with my Father. I would put on worship music, and pray outlaid, praises, and prayer requests, anything that came across my mind I will have an outlaid conversation with Him. I started drinking more water, cutting out all extra sugar, going to bed earlier, stopped wearing makeup, and started spending more time outdoors.
I’ve learned over the past few weeks by saying more “no’s” to time with friends, and more “yes’” to spending time outdoors in awe of God’s creation and having time with Him has changed my world. Small little changes have helped me to stop being hard on myself, and working to be healthier.
I’m learning that God gave me a heart to care for others, and there are pros and cons to that. That I love to pour all my energy on others, but I am especially learning I need to be pouring more of energy into Him & I .