The way we specifically focus on different things throughout life matters.
We spend so much time focusing on certain areas of our lives, yet do not spend time focusing on other areas, that maybe even more important than the areas we’re currently focusing on so much. Sometimes we spend more time focusing on having a special someone, rather than focusing on our relationship with God. Sometimes we focus more on our health, than other times we forgo our health, and only worry about other areas.
I’ve noticed that at different seasons of my own life, I pour more time into wanting a relationship with God, than other seasons where I barely open my bible, somehow scared that what It has to tell me will be painful. I think God created earthly seasons to help show us how we go through seasons ourselves. That we are not alone, that the earth, animals, those we love, and ourselves all go through times of change.
As my dad and I took a drive through the Aspen leaves (my favorite time of the year in CO!!), taking pictures of all the leaves with the wind blowing in our hair, and the sun warming our skin; I got to thinking about focus.
Lately I have been spending more time focusing on my health (because.. chronic illness kicks my butt) than I would have been two years ago. And lately I have been spending more time listening to audiobooks rather than music in the car, when I go for a run, or when running errands. There is just something about listening to women/men talking about their passion to pursue God so fearlessly, so boldly, rather than listening to nonChristian pop music. (Am currently listening/reading The Masterpiece by: Francine Rivers and Love Does by: Bob Groff) ((Highly recommend both books!!))
As this season is Fall, it’s crazy to think that we have seasons in life, just like how there are seasons in the year. How we all experience letting go, and shedding off past hurts, or moving on from unhealthy situations, its hard for us to refocus on some areas of our lives, wile other areas of our lives still need to be focused on.
I think God intentionally created different seasons in the year for different parts of our lives. How, there are different times to show different parts of what we’re going through. Spring to represent growth in the flowers and grass growing back, times of doubts/difficulties through rainstorms, and the crisp fresh air showing new change. Summer to represent letting go, finding the positive in our days, and the freedom that fills summer. Fall to represent change in the leaves colors changing, the temperature dropping symbolizing moving on from situations, and the beautiful sunsets showing that the Sun will always rise again, and so can we after a hard day. Winter to represent the harsh parts in our lives through blizzards, the cloudy days, that there are hard times, but the Sun is always behind the clouds, like God is always behind us, and the snow falling showing that growth comes after falling.
I feel like I’m currently going through the season between Fall and Winter. Where as the leaves start to fall off the trees, the vibrant green grass begins to fade, the wind begins to pick up, and the sun sets earlier on. Fall to Winter in my mind is like a snake shedding its own skin. The snake is ready for a change, and starts to see drastic change, even if it comes with loosing the security blanket it wraps itself in. I feel like I’m going through a time where my illness is getting the better of me, causing me to constantly be tired, sleeping more and more, like the sun starting to go down earlier. The group of friends ever closing up due to complete exhaustion and not being able to constantly hangout. It’s not their fault, it’s just a time of change, and shedding. My determination is like the wind, I’m a pusher, and don’t always know when to slow down; pushing myself to keep going when my body is already exhausted.
As we were driving through the Aspens I realized something; I really only focus on the Aspens in the Fall, driving past them in all other seasons. It’s not a bad thing, but it just shows that I focus on different things at different times of the year.
Seasons are healthy, and focusing on other areas at different times is healthy and important too. But the most important thing: I’m learning that God is not a season. He is important at all weather changes, tragedies, and triumphs. That He needs to be my focus no matter what season I’m going through.